Wednesday, November 18, 2009 @ 12:14 AM
* It has ended
Mushieee mushieee . . .Another day . . .
How are u peeps doing? Hows everything?
Long time i never update got alot of dust already just joking aites.
Alot of things had gone.
I will tell you peeps what happend and why i did not update my blog.
My life now has become sadness/madnees&unhappyness.
On the 16/11/09 my relationship has ended.
U peeps are shock rights?
Yeah me too,things are not going well for me and him.
On that day we went out together as usual.
Everything was fine then we lepak as usual place.
He was still happy and i was happy too.
I still can remember how he smiled at me.
After that he was stress then he cover his face then he think alot.
He was going to cry already and feeling low.
I can see from his eyes that he had alot of problems and stress with it.
He told me that he is stress with everything that he had gone through right now and scared of it by his parents and he told me that"u know about it right?"
I answer"yeah i know." He told me that if he continue going on with me
he will be killed by his parents he knows his parents attitude and knows them well.
He told me this " If i break up with you i know u will hate me and say something behind my back i know that im uselsss and worthless and did not take care of u all these while. But u have break my record, for 17years i finally had a girl who loved me this extend.Im sorry for everything". Thats what he told me,i started crying he move my head towards hys shlders and i started crying so badly that he also cried . It was not a fake crying cause his voice was changing that was the sadness moments of our life.
Then we had decided to break. I was still crying even him. He told me that there is 2 roads
the other road is his parents and the another road is ME.
Both roads has a dead end,if he go to the road which is me he will FALL.
And if he goes to the road which is his parents he will get KILLED.
I cry and cry til my eyes swollen and he told me after our relationship has ended promise me that
we will still be friends promise me that u will listen tuu ur mum and be a goodgirl i started to cry again.
And now me and him are friends.
Me and him are not meant for each other. But we were meant to love each other.
Just because im a catholic and his father does not know that he got girlfriend.
And i myself as nica dont wanna hurt him and dont want his father to scold him.
Just because im a catholic and his father does not know that he got girlfriend.
And i myself as nica dont wanna hurt him and dont want his father to scold him.
I want the best for him.
And his parents cant accept me cause im a catholic. U peeps now are saying
wad the hell why cant accept can covert what?
Easy for u peeps to say i can convert yesh i can but im scared of losing my family
my friends.
my friends.
Memories of Irwan & Nica
[ 090909 til 16/11/09]
Will always cherish and treasure the moments we had together.
The pictures that I had taken with him and some I had edited.
I wish you all the best,goodluck with everything.
I hope that ur dreams will come true.The promises that i had made with you
will be always be kept. The promise that u asked me to do i will do it .
Thanks for everything,thanks for changing my attitude and thanks for
showing me that right way to go.
**Even though we are apart i will always LOVE you**
Til here then peeps. Wish u peeps all the best with ur loved ones& LAST LONG!
